But Ry, some so many people can help me with binge eating – why you?’
This is a question I get asked often as more and more therapists, dietitians, and coaches are coming into the binge eating recovery space (which is awesome and overwhelming!). What I know from going to two different therapists before I found one that worked for me is that finding someone you vibe with honestly trumps everything.
When I was 13, I saw a picture of myself I HATED
and went on a mission to lose weight. And I did. A lot of it. So much that…
– I lost my period
– my hair was falling out
– I was cold all the time
– my heart rate was so low it had to be monitored
And then my parents told me they were going to hospitalize me, and I FREAKED. So, to prove to them I was fine (which I was not – just in major denial), I ate as much food as I could get my hands on.
…and at that moment, the gates opened to binge eating.
It was like I unleashed an insatiable hunger inside of me that could not be tamed, regardless of how much I ate. And no matter how hard I tried to get back to that girl who had so much ‘control,’ I felt more out of control.
– sneaking food when nobody was looking
– going to the grocery store just to buy things to binge on
– ordering as much takeout as I could afford whenever I was home alone
– spending 1000s of dollars on diets, weight loss programs, diet pills, juices, etc
Making it a few days of being ‘good’ until BAM *eat everything bc f-it I’ll start again tomorrow – and this was my entire life. For 7 years.
After 7 years of this, I literally couldn’t do it anymore.
I hit rock bottom, and I hit it HARD. In my sophomore year of college, I called my mom and told her I needed help. And that summer, I went on a mission to find a way out of the disorder, the crazy, and the obsession… I did.
So I know what it feels like, and there is freedom. I am here to show you the way!