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Episode Transcript

Hello, it’s Ryann, your host from the Food Freedom Lab. In today’s episode, I’m opening up about my journey through binge eating, sharing the raw and authentic details. If you’ve been through something similar, I want you to know you’re not alone.

Living a Double Life

Binge eating often means living a double life. The secrecy becomes a full-time job, filled with lies to cover up the shame and guilt. It’s a struggle to engage in these behaviors without anyone knowing, amplifying the isolation.

The Constant Mental Battle

The mental battle around food was overwhelming. Imagine a voice in your head that never stops, blaming and shaming you all day long. The first thought in the morning? Food. Last thought before bed? Food. It’s a constant, non-stop barrage that doesn’t shut off.

The Urge to Binge

The urge to binge is like dealing with a relentless monster inside. It’s not about enjoying the food; it’s a fast, aggressive, and out-of-body experience. When that urge hits, it’s like a switch flips, and everything else fades away.

The Binge High

Surprisingly, there’s a strange “high” that comes with deciding to binge. Planning the binge, the excitement of getting full, and the promise of starting a new diet afterward—it’s a rollercoaster of emotions that sucks you in.

Unusual Food Combinations

Binge eating doesn’t always follow a pattern. I’d binge on anything, creating the craziest food combinations. It’s not about enjoying the food; it’s about getting in as much as possible, as fast as possible.

Snapping Out of the Binge

The moment of snapping out of a binge is like coming back to reality. Seeing the aftermath—empty wrappers, containers—triggers a wave of shame and guilt. It’s a low point, feeling like a failure once again.

Urgency to Get Rid of Evidence

Hiding the evidence becomes urgent—finding a trash can where no one will see it, taking out the trash in the middle of the night, or even resorting to spraying cleaner on food to prevent further consumption.

The Binge Hangover

There’s a physical “binge hangover” the day after. Gastro issues, an unpleasant taste in my mouth, and discomfort linger. The embarrassment is real, from canceling plans to dealing with bodily functions that make you want to hide.

Reflections on Recovery

Recovery is a journey, not a destination. Binge eating is a symptom, not a reflection of your worth. Acknowledge that seeking help is not a sign of weakness but a courageous step toward healing.

Closing Thoughts

If you’re struggling, know that recovery is possible. Take that first step, change the narrative, and seek support. I’m here to tell you that life after binge eating is worth it—full of freedom, self-love, and happiness.

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